On October 31, 2011 I had my left knee replaced. As of today, 12/13/11, I am still in recovery. This is a slow and often painful process. Given my already challenging health condition, with numerous other maladies, I have had more time than I want to reflect on my life and the lives of those that I love and truly care about. It is 12:35AM need I tell you, given the preceding statement, that sleep has been very elusive. However, I must say that the pain that I feel now has nothing to do with my knee. It’s in my head, as I think about the conditions that we find ourselves in this country today. The pain is in my heart as I see people suffering in conditions that promise to become much more dire. I watch people go on day to day aimlessly, without purpose and without any understanding that the game has dramatically changed, and we have taken no preparatory survival classes.
I have been confronted with my mortality; maybe for the first time in my life I don’t have the immediate answer, I don’t have the plan. I find myself surrounded by uncertainty. There is one thing that I feel in my very core, I MUST CHANGE. My challenge or my quest as it may be is to define and embrace that change. I must articulate that change in a way that it will manifest itself in behavioral shift through which I will find my inner peace.
William R Miller IV